This Too Shall Pass

OK GO has the best music videos. Here's a recent one for their song "This Too Shall Pass. I think the Rube Goldberg concept is brilliant.



And if you've been living under a rock in a cave, here's their famous treadmill video for their song "Here It Goes Again." Once again, brilliant.




Also, first night of CRIMES OF THE HEART auditions was tonight. I honestly have no idea how I did. And there were 25 girls going for 4 parts. Eek. Night #2 tomorrow. Then hopefully I will make it to callbacks Wednesday.

And one more thing. Apartment hunting is stressfull

Secret Sundays.

Neither will I.

I also don't stand in front of mirrors in dark rooms.

Tomorrow.

The auditions are tomorrow.

WHY AM I SO NAUSEOUS?

Confession #2

I know where I'm going.

I know how I'll get there.

I'm afraid of going it alone.



Another confession. Crimes of the Heart auditions at Baton Rouge Little Theater are this Monday and Tuesday. I usually don't get nervous for an audition until a couple hours before, sometimes the morning of. But the event just showed up in my "Upcoming Events" sidebar on Facebook and I suddenly got very nervous. Like, need-to-take-a-pill-to-sleep-tonight kind of nervous. I NEVER get this nervous. I don't know why I'm so nervous now.

Well, actually, I do...

I worked at the theater this past summer (which, by the way, was the best job that anyone could ever ask for), but I haven't been onstage since last May. I made a conscious decision to not do any theater my first semester of college so that I could focus on school, which was the right decision. But that also means that it has been 188 days since I have performed onstage. And I miss it! I'm going crazy without it! I NEED IT.

*sigh* Well, I guess we shall see if this works out in my favor. I really hope so. It would be nice if something would work out in my favor.

Confession #1

Salad bars freak me out. There's no way they can be sanitary. I have no faith in sneeze guards. And how are they supposed to protect from bugs and returning spoons to wrong containers and cross contamination and such? And how can I trust that the vegetables are fresh or that the dressings haven't been spit in? They're just not worth it. They come with too much anxiety and stress.

They're like bacterial sex clubs. And they FREAK ME OUT.




Also, it looks like night #5 is going to suck just as bad as the first 4.

I wonder if anyone ever reads this blog.

#3

The third night is even worse.

Cookie Monster for SNL!

This made me smile, which is saying a lot right now.

The First Night Is Easy.

It starts to hurt on the second night.

Today, I realized how much work I have to do before December 2nd. Like, way ridiculous a lot of work.

I mean, sure, I will very much need a distraction this Thanksgiving. But I was just hoping for a paper. Maybe a quiz.

But I've got 30 times that.

Argh.

Also, I missed the finale for Dancing With the Stars tonight because I had to go see an opera that made me cry. It was a fantastic one-woman opera, but it hit way to close to home. Like "target home with a nuclear missile and press the big red button" kind of way to close to home. Curious? Google La Voix Humaine (The Human Voice) by Frances Poulenc with text by J. Cocteau.

I'm hurting a lot right now. A lot.

DWTS

Brandy was voted off of Dancing With The Stars tonight.

Yay! I mean, she was a good dancer, but she was soooooo obnoxious.

That means Jennifer Grey, Kyle Massey, and Bristol Palin are going to the finals. Jennifer Hough is obviously going to win. There are some who say Bristol Palin doesn't deserve to be there, but I think she's shown the most improvement of all of the dancers this season.

Other than that, I've had an incredibly horrible day. I really, really, really need a hug.

Anxiety

I can't shake this feeling that something really bad is about to happen. Like, life-changing bad. And it's terrifying me.

I do this to myself. I have anxiety issues that have gotten worse this semester. I'll worry about one little thing so much that it makes me sick or it affects my schoolwork or my relationships.

I have no reason to be so worried. But I am. Very, very worried.


I really hope it's all for nothing.

Sunday Secrets

on Monday.



My roommate and I got a Christmas tree for our dorm room. I know, it's too early, but after Thanksgiving is over, we'll only have two weeks in our room, so we're having Christmas early!

It's Cold.

I'm in the office I work in. Jeans, boots, long sleeve shirt, sweatshirt. I'm freezing.

Don't get me wrong. I'm glad the cold weather is here, but shouldn't we keep it outside?! I think hot chocolate is in order. Hot chocolate with marshmallows and a super heavy, but soft blanket on a huge, comfy bed and a fireplace with a dog sleeping in front of it and a Christmas movie and someone to watch it with and.......

Please excuse me, I just zoned out a bit thinking about how wonderful that sounds.

Speaking of Christmas movies, I broke down and watched one this weekend. The Santa Clause 2. Not a particularly good Christmas movie, but Elizabeth Mitchell (who played Juliet on LOST, may she and it rest in peace) is in it, which for me is reason enough to watch it. I'm going to *try* to save the good ones until the real Christmas season starts after Thanksgiving.

Gah! I'm ready for Thanksgiving/Christmas now! No school, warm houses, cookies, decorations, Christmas trees, fuzzy socks, mashed potatoes, and..............

I'm sorry, I believe I just zoned out again.

Before I make myself too depressed thinking about how long I have to wait for all of these wonderful things, I think I'll close out this post with my top 5 favorite Christmas movies (or at least my top five today, November 8, 2010 at 9:14 AM).


Emily's top Five Favorite Christmas Movies:

5) How the Grinch Stole Christmas (2000)



FIrst of all, how can you not love Dr. Seuss's "How the Grinch Stole Christmas." Fuzzy green curmudgeon feels left out and calls it hate for Christmas; tries to ruin Christmas and in turn finds its true meaning; heart grows three sizes; the end. And (though I know some people who will probably think less of me for admitting this) I am a Jim Carey fan. And the colors are just so gosh darned pretty!

4) The Santa Clause (1994)



This is the first Christmas movie I remember. I own it on VHS. My mom and I watch it in the kitchen while making Christmas cookies. And as is true with almost all sequels, the first movie is the best.

3) The Nightmare Before Christmas (1993)



I shouldn't even have to explain why this is on my list.

2) A Christmas Story



It's a classic. This movie is so perfect that TNT dedicates a solid twenty-four hours to it on Christmas Day. And it's so quotable. "Fa-ra-ra-ra-ra!" "C-Plus?!" "You'll shoot your eye out!" My brother and I caught the blue ball joke for the first time last year. Haven't caught it yet? It's there, you'll find it. But you can only watch this movie on TNT on Christmas Day. To watch it on any other day is sacrilege.

And my number one favorite Christmas movie of all time is........!

1) The Polar Express (2004)



My. Absolute. Favorite. And I'll tell you why.

When I was younger, my family had a Christmas Eve tradition. I would leave out the cookies and milk for Santa and my mother would read me two stories. The first story was an old pop-up book of "Twas the Night Before Christmas." The second story was "The Polar Express" by Chris Van Allsburg. "The Polar Express" is the reason I asked Santa for a bell from Prancers sleigh every year. I saw the movie "The Polar Express around 2006 (I think) when it was ABC Family's Christmas movie one weekend. I watched it every time it aired that weekend.
This movie captures the book perfectly. It makes me laugh. It makes me cry. It makes me feel all warm and fuzzy inside. It makes me feel Christmas.

Have a Merry Monday! 17 days until Thanksgiving! 47 days until Christmas!

I'm Afraid...

...that I might have run out of things to say.

I'm also afraid that I have a problem that will never go away.